Psalms 34:4 I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
This Psalm was written by David after he had escaped King Achish by pretending to be insane. In it he tells how God had remained faithful to him during his time of troubles. I want to tell you about how I relate to his psalm and how God was yet faithful to me.
At one point in my life I was deep in the midst of sickness and heartache. I had no place else to turn. My friends couldn’t help me, my parents and children couldn’t help me. The doctors repeatedly told me that I would have to live with the abscesses that, had literally taken over my body, for the rest of my life. There was no cure all they could do was cut me over and over and over some more. My marriage was in shambles, I was buried in debt over my head and I had a J.U.B. (job), Just Under Broke. I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. Something had to give.
My thoughts were that I needed some type of relief. Either end this horrific pain and put me out of my misery or save me. I had grown up in church so I knew a little something about God. I wanted to commit suicide but I knew better and if nothing else in this world scared me, knowing that if I took my own life it was a one way ticket to hell, kept me from swallowing the massive amount of pain pills I had. I had no where to turn and hope was a fading memory.
I can’t remember asking God for much of anything during my time of “I’m grown and will do whatever I want” stage in life. I may have slipped in very few prayers. But I remembered my younger days and the times that I loved God enough to want to be baptized. I felt something for Him back then, could He be my last hope. So I gave it a go. I prayed and asked God to save me from the despair, the pain, the heartache and the troubles.
I turned to him when there was nothing else I could do. I was a mess, I mean a wretch undone. Romans 7:24 (AMP) Wretched and miserable man that I am! Who will [rescue me and] set me free from this body of death [this corrupt, mortal existence]?
But Jesus heard my cry and he saved me and delivered me from the mess that I was in. The mess that I had made of and for myself. It wasn’t immediate. And it has taken years to get to where I am now. Oh but he did and he changed my life. I still am not perfect but I am not nearly what I used to be. I surely thank God for that!
When faced with circumstances beyond our control, where do we turn? If you haven’t figured it out, the best place is to turn to the Lord.
Originally posted on May 17, 2017 @ 11:57 AM
Woman of God on a mission to spread love most of all, kindness and the truth about the Savior. I thank Him daily for saving and keeping me, bringing me into the knowledge of Him and steadily making intercession for me on behalf of the Father. Every lesson that I give goes to me first. I speak not as though I am different but that I am the same as any other follower of Christ, seeking wisdom and understanding from God and depending on Him fully to provide everything that I need in this life.