And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief. Mark 9:24
Truth and confession can be a hard thing when it comes to admitting your faults and your flaws to yourself and to Jesus. Only when you are able to be honest with yourself and say Lord I believe in you, but help my unbelief. You can ask Jesus to look at your heart and see all the things that you know that you’ve done wrong and you’ve not gotten right, it is amazing that God still hears you. But He can only correct those things when you surrender them and yourself to Him.
I thank God that I can come to Him and say, Lord I see where I failed. I have failed to trust you most of the time when your word says to trust you and to love you and to have faith in you. Mark 9:24 in the Bible that says, I believe Lord but help my unbelief. This was after Jesus had said to him, “If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.” in verse 23. The father’s answer was an immediate surrender of the truth in his heart. With our mouths we say we believe that God can do the impossible, but it is with the deeply rooted mindset that in our hearts we do not believe.
I confess that this has been the struggle of my life. I have seen God work miracles in my life as well as the lives of others. But there is this deeply rooted mindset that tells me some promises of God are impossible for me to have. At times I can see them in the grasp of my hand. Often though I feel them slip away with the thoughts that I could never possess them because they are too great for someone like me. If you read a bit further down in the text of Mark 9, Jesus disciples ask Him why they were not able to cast out the spirit in the boy of the father as He had. Jesus reply was, “This kind can only come forth by nothing but prayer and fasting.”
To sum this up, what I need to in order to change my mindset of unbelief and full trust in God can only be changed by nothing but prayer and fasting.
Father I thank you for a heart of truth, confession and surrender. The hardest person to be truthful about myself with is myself. I thank you that your word is a mirror and I can see the reflection of who I am in You. I thank you for the revelation that I am not perfect but am perfected in You. I confess my unbelief and lack of trust in You and I ask you to help me believe in You through prayer, fasting and Your word.
What truth is hardest for you to confess to yourself and Jesus today? How can you surrender the unbelief and begin to believe what He says about you?