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Chose Your Position for the Battle

When the enemy comes in like a flood, God will raise up a standard against him.

Have you ever been in a position that everything you have the enemy begins to attack? Things come out of the woodworks against you. He attacks your health with something you’ve never seen or experienced and the doctor shrugs it off as not important enough for testing. Prescribes a few non-effective medications and sends you on your way. Debts you’ve never seen appear and takes your money before you even know they exists and before you know it you can’t make ends meet. You pray and trust the Lord even more but He hasn’t changed your situation and you find yourself asking, What’s up Lord?”

I’m in a place where I can feel the attacks of the enemy and I can hold my grip on faith. With every blow I hold on. Even when I feel like God is not rescuing me, I believe he will, just in his timing. The fire is hot, the darts are being thrown and I’m holding up my shield of faith. For in every battle, a warrior must know when to use each piece of the armor God has equipped him with. There is a time to strike with the sword and there is a time to hold your ground and defend yourself with the shield.

This lesson is new territory for me. And in this current battle I have learned to hold my ground and protect myself with the shield of faith. Yes I continue to pray and pray the word of God. This battle is not one for me to charge the enemy with the sword because as I recognize and feel in my spirit, that this is a battle God has already planned and won. In Exodus 14 Pharaoh was in hot pursuit of the children of Israel after Go hardened his heart that he would go after them. He did this so that he would be glorified and honored (Exodus 14:4) and that the Egyptians would know without doubt that he was Lord.

See there are battles God sends us out to fight and there are battles God fights for us. The battles I fight shows others who he is IN me. This battle he is fighting for me because He wants to show me more of just who he is TO me. Yes I cried and yes I asked god what is this that is happening in my life right now and more so why is it happening. Is it something I did is always my first question. That’s the flesh part of me asking just as the Israelites were asking Moses.

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Exodus 14:10-12
10 And when Pharaoh drew nigh, the children of Israel lifted up their eyes, and, behold, the Egyptians marched after them; and they were sore afraid: and the children of Israel cried out unto the Lord.

11 And they said unto Moses, Because there were no graves in Egypt, hast thou taken us away to die in the wilderness? wherefore hast thou dealt thus with us, to carry us forth out of Egypt?

12 Is not this the word that we did tell thee in Egypt, saying, Let us alone, that we may serve the Egyptians? For it had been better for us to serve the Egyptians, than that we should die in the wilderness.

But Moses answers the people with faith in the Lord. And here is where I find my answer to what to do in this battle.

Exodus 14:13-14 Then Moses said to the people, “Do not be afraid! Take your stand [be firm and confident and undismayed] and see the salvation of the Lord which He will accomplish for you today; for those Egyptians whom you have seen today, you will never see again. 14 The Lord will fight for you while you [only need to] keep silent and remain calm.”

In faith Moses speaks to the children of Israel and follows the instruction of the Lord God. He tells them to go forward. Today God is telling me to go forward. Keep pressing towards the mark and He will have victory over my enemy. He will cause waters to draw back and part for my safe passage to the other side of the sea. He will drown my enemy in the traps, snares, troubles and tribulations that he has caused me. For the Lord fights for me against the enemy til there remains not so much as one of the troubles from him.

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Internal Struggle

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I feel like I’m on the verge of giving up. I’m emotional, angry, hurt and feeling defeated all at the same time. It feels like I’m on this island all by myself trying to serve God but I don’t feel like I’m getting it even close to right. The more I long for Him an praise Him the more it seems like things are going wrong.
I love God an I have this hope and expectation in Him. This burning desire to live for Him and be used by Him. But what in the world….this season I seem to be in is so conflicting. I miss my church family where I was growing in ministry to now be in a place where not even so much as a prayer is being asked of me. I had a fight with my husband about being late all of the time for church. Why is it I’m the only one who desires to be on time in my house? I can’t even begin to comprehend the chaos that is going on with all of our kids. And it’s like I’m drowning in trouble on every side.

Through all of this all I want is to serve God with intention and a grateful heart. I want to be used by Him and for Him and to be completely obedient to His word and His way. I just want my lifestyle to line up with Jesus. This morning all I could hear down in my spirit was, for God I’ll live and for God I’ll die. Romans 14:8 says, “For whether we live, we live unto the Lord; and whether we die, we die unto the Lord: whether we live therefore, or die, we are the Lord’s.” But what stands out more than anything is in verse 7 that says, “None of us lives for himself [for his own benefit, but for the Lord], and none of us dies for himself [but for the Lord].” ‭‭ROMANS‬ ‭14:7‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I don’t know how many may be struggling in the same way but I’ve come to encourage myself!! I WILL lift up my eyes to the hills for which cometh my help. Lord help me to be still and continue to wait expectantly for your timing and Your direction. Help me to learn wisdom in this season and to not grow weary in well doing. Correct me when I’m wrong and let my heart be open wide and accepting to that correction. Heavenly Father help me to live out the desired lifestyle that is pleasing in Your sight privately as will as publicly, for Your glory. In Jesus name, Amen.