Revelations 2:3-4 And [I know that] you [who believe] are enduring patiently and are bearing up for My name’s sake, and that you have not grown weary [of being faithful to the truth]. But I have this [charge] against you, that you have left your first love [you have lost the depth of love that you first had for Me].
Over the next month or two I will be re-posting here some of the devotionals I posted a number of years ago when I began my journey into a relationship with God. I had a previous blog that I began, just wanting to really get into blogging and writing. I gave up on that blog just shortly after starting. I believe there was a two part in my giving it up.
- I was not dedicated and disciplined enough to want to continue the quest.
- It was just not the right time. I needed to sit at the feet of my Savior, learn and wait on His timing.
I came back across these writings and studies looking for something else a week ago. God brought these back to me and as I began to read some of them I couldn’t believe that I had written them. But it also ignited a flame and hunger for God that was so strong in me and seems like it was ages ago. It reminded me of my first passions and desires to just know who God was and to long for a deep, deep relationship with Him. And a desire to rely and depend on Him.
As much as I love the Lord now and choose to serve Him, going back made me realize that my fire has died down from what it was several years ago. I think over time I have allowed the business of life and wanting to do FOR God to drown out the realness of God’s presence to me and in me. Just because you are doing stuff for God does not make it good to God. You can be doing good and it still be wrong if it is not what God has asked you to do. It is my deepest prayer to be in the will of God and not of my own.
I invite you to take this journey with me back to my first love and pray that the desire for Him grows even the more stronger in me and also in you.