On my walk over to work this morning I was just reflecting on being a mother. My girls are away on summer vacation for two weeks visiting with their dad. Yes I’m in a blended family, my husband and I both have three children so we have six altogether and this is the first time that my girls have gone and are gonna be away for this amount of time. I was just thinking about how much I miss them. At the same time I was thinking about breakfast. I try to keep things in my office for a quick bite. Then I thought about how I didn’t have anything left in my cabinet because my youngest daughter would come over after school and she’s eaten up all of the snacks in my office. And I was just thinking about how much I missed them.
It caused me to reflect back and think that if I had known that I would have three kids and could love them so much I never would have believed it. I know when I was a young girl I played pretend and I dreamed of a husband and children but it was just my imagination. I don’t think I ever had the actual reality that those things would one day be real and here I am today. I have three kids!
I may not be the best mother in the world but I love my children. I spoil them, I chastised them. I get angry with them and I love them. I come running when they call. My son is a young adult know and so he calls more than the girls. And no matter how old he gets I come running when he calls. But I love them more through ever instance. I do each of these things because of my love for them.
This made me reflect and think about God’s love towards us. Because of his love for us, we have on the inside of us his love and the things we do for our children God does that and so much more for us. He loves us, he chastises us, he gets angry with us. He hurts when he has to chastise us at times, but he loves us with an unconditional love. And when we are away, we’ve gone outside of his will he yet still loves us. When we’re off doing other things he’s still right where he’s always been loving us. Kind of like I’m doing right now with my children. They are away, they’re doing what they want to do right now with their dad.
But I still love them. I’m still making plans for them. I’m still preparing them for their future. I’m still raising them up in holiness. I’m still being their mother. And I thank God that he loves us with an unconditional love. With that love, he nurtures us, he protects us, he cares for us, he provides for us, he keeps us safer then we can keep our own children. How because he is greater than anything we could ever be and he is omnipresent. His hand is mighty and strong. The song says He’s got the whole world in his hands. And what we as mothers cannot do for our children, our prayer request sent up to God can. Today I just want to take the time to say I cherish the relationship, intimacy, and the unconditional love that God has for us.
Prayer: Thank you Lord that you have given me the gift of being a mother and three gifts that call me mom. I do not take it for granted that you have entrusted me as the caretaker of these three little souls. Help me to know them in the spirit. To nurture them and train them up in holiness and righteousness and in the way that they should go. So that when they are older, what has been planted n the inside of them will be watered by you and in you they will never depart.
Over the summer I’m hoping that things will slow down a bit since the girls are out of school and the summer semester at work is slow. Instead of being on social media or watching a lot of Netflix, I’d like to read more of the books that I purchased started reading and had to put down for one reason or another. Although the bible is the most important everyday reading in my life there are books that interest me in terms of helping or enhancing my relationship with the lord and increasing my prayer life. These 5 books focus on prayer and intercession and are an excellent partner to the Hidden In God Prayer Planner.
Here are the 5 books in my summer reading list:
The Battle Plan for Prayer: From Basic Training to Targeted Strategies
Author: Kendrick, Stephen
Fervent: A Woman’s Battle Plan to Serious, Specific and Strategic Prayer
Author: Shirer, Priscilla
His Princess: Love Letters from Your King
Author: Sheri Rose Shepherd
Possessing the Gates of the Enemy: A Training Manual for Militant Intercession
Rooms of Intercession: Entering into Passionate Prayer
Author: Brenda Dennie
I had a dream. In this dream I had a destination and I was traveling to the place with my pastor. We started off in a van with lots of windows and I could see that we were going through a neighborhood and there were houses on both sides. We would periodically stop and witness to people we saw. After riding for a short time we came to a street and the scene changed. The road became a steep hill and the weather became a frozen mess. Cars were empty but sliding by us straight down the hill because of the icy street. There was lots of snow and the road was slick and we had to abandon the van and climb the steep streets by foot. It was difficult but we eventually made it to the top and the scene changed again. This time there was a new neighborhood and the houses were made with jewels embedded into the structure. We walked and I admired the homes with the shining stones. My pastor, she and I had talked the whole way but when we reached the end of the street, I noticed that the neighborhood was quite familiar and that I could have taken a different way, a shorter way that would have gotten me to where I was a lot faster and without all of the difficulties.
Then I heard the Lord speak and he told me that he could have taken me that way but I needed to go the long difficult way for a reason. Those jewels in the houses had a meaning also in what his plan for me is. He spoke about the jewels but it slips my mind right now as this dream was a couple years ago. I tell you about the dream because in reading God’s word this morning one of the scriptures I landed on reminded me of it.
Deuteronomy 8:2 (KJV)
And thou shalt remember all the way which the Lord thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what was in thine heart, whether thou wouldest keep his commandments, or no.
It’s funny but in a couple months I will be forty.
For a few days now I have this overwhelming feeling that something is on the horizon. And when I read this passage of scripture and think back over my life just during these last 7 years when I gave my life back to God. I can truly say I thank Him for leading me through the wilderness. I may not even be out of it yet, but I know God does not make mistakes and he has already shown me that I needed to go through it. Some times the trials, tribulations and tests have knocked me flat to the ground but I did not give up on God. I have wanted to quit many times the things he has called me to, but I have not I have endured through his strength and courage. I have cried my way through many trials, prayed through unmeasurable tribulations, gone to Jesus with the thought of asking for an escape but hitting my knees knowing that I do not want an escape but the strength to just make it through. Why? Because I know that what God has on the other side of my praise, my tests, my worship, my tribulations, my wilderness…
Is a promise land flowing with milk and honey.